I saw your long distance post just now on my news feed. Just curious, are you in a long distance relationship? How far away are y'all? I am in one as well.
Yes I am! We have been together for nine months and seven of those have been spent apart. It’s quite the undertaking but it’s very worth it!
It’s a horrible pain, realizing your heart is missing from your chest, because you never get used to it. Once you have left his side the world keeps spinning, and time keeps moving, and life goes on. You think that your heart has become strong enough beat without his presence, but it’s the worst kind of deception. The moment that the distance is shortened, and you are back In his arms you know the truth… You never had your heart at all.
It was with him the whole time. What you described as being strong was simply a getting used to the empty space. Your heart is his possession now. Time slips past silently and much too soon it’s time for the two of you to be separated again. The pain of leaving your heart behind is just as fresh as the first time. It never becomes easier or less painful. There’s no cure, and the suffering never completely disappears it just gets more dull. Like switching from a steak knife to a butter knife. That hole inside your chest is gaping, and you know he is the only way to fill it. Until eventually the void becomes the new normal, and then the cycle begins again.